its not GOODBYE but SEE YOU LATER...

It's September 2nd...today leaves a bitter sweet taste in my mouth. My older sister, NeNe, is leaving for grad school in Boston.
Don't get me wrong...I'm so happy for my sister. We spent the weekend together, celebrating her achievement. We had a small gathering at the parents house...friends and family came to show support and love.It was fun times...lots of pictures and videos lol
My sister is not the type of person to stay in one place for too long...I'm used to that. It's just sad that she is leaving...I know she will be back. Or at least I think she will.
This day may me realize that Saturday might have been the last time...all the girls will be together until whenever???
This is my last year in college...my sister is going away for grad school...who knows what the future holds. I know one day I will see her again...maybe Thanksgiving or Christmas. I wonder about after the holidays... my graduation (I know she better be there REGARDLESS)
I'm reflecting on my life and the lives of those around me... The girls (NeNe, MoMo, Princess, Devin, and OF course me) are turning into WOMEN...not young women but we're growing up and growing apart.
I know for the longest...it has always been NeNe, MoMo, and Qui Qui... now the pack is going separate ways.

There will be times that we will get together and it seems as if time as stood still...but at this very moment I cherish every birthday, every fight, every disagreement, every piece of clothing that was "borrowed" and never returned, and every moment that was shared between all three of us or just the two of us.
The old saying is so true for the three of us... Good friends are hard to find. Yes, these beautiful, intelligent, outgoing, silly, smartass, head strong, and every other qualities that they embodied are my closest friends and my family.

To my sister, I miss you already and you just left. I'm so blessed to have you as my sister. The times where I wanted to kill you for getting on my nerves or saying something smart. You always told me what I NEEDED to hear rather than tell me what I wanted to hear. Thank you for being honest with me... I couldn't ask for a better friend then you. You have always been there for me...through the good,the bad, and the ugly. I hope that we continue to be as close as we are even with all the miles between us. I'm getting teary eye by writing this...I want you to know..I LOVE YOU!!! You can always depend on me...whatever I have or whatever I accomplish is yours. THANK YOU FOR BEING MY BEST FRIEND AND A WONDERFUL SISTER!!!

This is something I had to get off my chest...I'm the type of person who holds my feelings inside. But for my sister, I will do anything.

Drake Who???

By now I think everybody should officially RETIRE some of Drake's songs...for instance...Best I Ever Had.

At the beginning of August I went to Boston with my sister....I swear we heard this song on the radio 33 times and probably some. Not only was it playing on the radio but we had mixtapes that had Best I Ever Had.

Seriously, let's retired the song. I love Drake as much as the next girl but when you OUT play a song then it gets old REALLY REALLY fast.

That's the only negative thing I have to say about him...

Wait...did anyone see the video of him falling on stage??? This might have to do with his knee/leg injury but maybe he just slipped and fell. I admit... I laughed and played the video over again. My favorite part is at the end when Weezy decides to speak..."This Nigga when does have a bad knee?"

I'm trying to get back to writing on my blog...kinda hard because the things I'm thinking I don't know if I should publish.
This is the best way I know to get things off my chest....
Now that I'm back I have to be creative about the things I want to write about....

Instead of sharing personal information about what is going on in my life then I will poke at other ppl lives...lol...that wouldn't be nice

Wanted to share...

I love music...

Whether it's mainstream of underground...as long as it sounds good to me I will listen to it.

I been in love with this man since "Gotta Go"...YEP!!! thats right...Mr. Trey Songz

Now, he can def get it...his voice makes me warm all over...but I found this playlist on imeem (A good website to just go to listen to music)

I thought I would post the playlist...Please enjoy

Trey Songz - Ready

A Taste of Fresh Air...

There are some things that I wanted to get off my chest....



The other day my roommate asked me did I believe in soulmates. My initial response was no but as I as I took a deeper look into what a soul mate was…I realized that I might have let my soulmate go.

My first love.

If he was my soulmate than that means we were meant to be together and God will work accordingly.

I know that you will never truly get over your first love but I still have the admiration for him. He will always hold a special place in my heart.
As I sit here and listen to songs on my itunes…. This song describes how I feel about him. It’s Anthony Hamilton “Her Heart”…I think of it from a females perspective.

No matter where my life takes me and how far a part we grow, I will always love this man. Even though the good, the bad, the ugly, and the beautiful. I want him back in my life. At least that's what I'm feeling now.

My heart will not let him go. It just won’t let me lose him. I just can’t say goodbye.

Love is nothing to play with. It can either hurt like hell or bring you so much joy. I want the joy of love back. I don’t give my heart out to anyone. I need someone who I feel like can handle me and no matter what will always love me the same and let that love grow (rather than fade).

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My happiness is a gift that I give myself each and everyday.

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Sometimes SEX is just that….SEX.
Nothing more and nothing less so why do females like to put too much thought into it?

Funny thing is… when it comes to SEX, I’m just like a dude. IF (and only if) its just sex then I don’t need sweet talk, the cuddle afterwards, or the phone call the next day. At that moment, we know what we were doing. If you wasn’t doing all those special things before then I do not expect you to do them after you have seen me naked.

Some females do not get that. Females think that if a guy has sex with you then that means he wants to take things to the next level… you should have asked that question before you dropped your panties.

Like myself, if I’m horny and I’m feeling/like a dude, and I feel like he can handle having sex with me then I’m going to take my chances. There are some dudes that think that if you have sex with them that it means something else. It all depends on the situation.

A close friend made me feel like I was wrong for having SEX with this dude aka SexyLips that I was feelin… so during a truth-or-dare game….she dare me to ask him out on a date. I did as part of the game but it was awkward because it was changing the dynamics of the friendship SexyLips and I had.

It’s whatever….because it was just SEX. He can think whatever he wants but I know what is up.
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I need a taste of fresh air....