I need my SPACE back...

FACEBOOK...
it can be a wonderful way to meet, connect, and network with different people from different places....a way to express yourself verbally with the public without ever meeting that person
OR
it was be depressing because so much personal information is given out over facebook...from your status (what, where, why, who...anything you want to know bout what a person is doing)
BUT
I want to tell facebook that I need my space back. At this moment I'm login in on fb and looking at other people's status.... and I don't like what I just saw.
This dude that I have been talking to since February (on and off) has his status as "Thru all the struggles... I have finally realized that what we have is hopeless.. So quietly I'll walk away"
HE IS TALKING ABOUT ME!!!

I need to vent...
We have had this "talk" about making it official or not. I won't lie about my feelings for him. There were strong and real feelings for him but there was that doubt in my heart his wasn't right for me. Yes, I enjoyed his company and I love spending time with him. I question...was I sending the wrong signals?

This situation got me thinking....

When you find someone that you're interested in and you hang out (kick it or whatever) basically spending most of your time with this one person then does that mean it has to end with a relationship?

If that was complicated to understand.... does every guy you talk to and build a friendship with NEED to end with making it official???

Guy meets girl, guy falls for girl, girl doesn't know if guy is right for girl...that is how this story is going.
Yes, there are most components to the situation but sometimes you got to keep it simple.

There are some people who give you doubt and rather than find out what that doubt is MAYBE things should end.

I'm confused and I wish that I had the right answer to this problem...but maybe there is no right answer

Let's see what happens....

(Ladies....never settle for something that you feel isn't right for you. Always follow your heart because that's what will make you happy at the end of the day. If you follow your mind then you might make a decision that you will regret at the end of the day. Love is something that is not should not be played with. Don't say those three special words if you don't mean it (even if there is doubt or not) My heart has been broken before and I hate to see someone's else heart broken because of me)

The Love Jones...

There are females who need, want, love to be in relationship. Then…there are females like me…who need, want, and love to be single. Sometimes the two meet in the middle but that is when the confusion sets in.
The confusion of wanting a serious relationship but like the boundaries of a causal relationship better can have a female wondering which one is best for her. Basically a female wants her cake and eat it to…AND what is so wrong with that. At some point other factors come into play. Can you blame a chick? Guys do it all the time. Guys are able to jungle a couple of women while never committing to none of them but he treats each one like they are the one for him. So can you blame chick if she does the same?
All this relates to my situation now. I been talking to this dude since February, it all start when he came to visit me while I was working the night desk at my dorm, then it got a little serious because he came every night I worked. Summer break was approaching and since we lived in the same city, one would have thought that everything would continue once we got to Louisville. I would say that it was good the first couple of weeks but I started summer school and I was working part time so my mind was on that and not him. We drifted apart and I began hanging out with a old fling while he was spending time with his ex-girlfriend. Who would believe it that him and his ex would get back together…then she would become a freshman at our school. The semester began without any drama then him and his girl broke up so we picked up right were we left off. We actually were better than we were when the semester ended and things got REAL serious. The talked about becoming a couple, making it official and changing our status on facebook. (Sidebar: When did being exclusive on facebook the decision factor of a relationship…lol)
Now we are at the end of the Fall semester and we are in a causal relationship. Is a relationship at the end of the tunnel or just another causal fling? The decision is mine. A decision that I can not fully make on my own. Ladies…I know you have been here before.
You’re at a crossed road where you feel like you met a guy that you can truly be with but the other part of you is not really sure if this is the guy you want to be with. Yeah I know it sounds like I said the same thing but it has a totally different meaning.
I believe that he is a good guy. He has all the qualitities a female would want in a boyfriend but there are moments when I’m thinking “Are you serious? Did you just do that or say that?” Since he is younger I feel like there is so much he can learn before dating someone my age. Then again he knows how to handle (at times).
Females tend to be attracted to one type of guy and have list of qualities that one would want in a boyfriend but then you meet this guys and all that goes out the window. Sometimes it works out for the best then sometimes it works for the worse. Dating, love, and relationship are a learning process. It’s an experience that everyone has to go through but it one that is hard to go into if you been hurt before. Is there a time period that should be place on how long two people can talk before deciding to call it quits or making it official? Females really don’t have a “type” of guy they go after but we know what we like. Usually looks are at the top of that list…definitely if we look good (don’t want to be match up with someone UGLY… it’s the truth) but other qualities might be personality, swag, or relationship with God and parents. Depending on the female the characteristics can be a range from one extreme to the next.
You never want to hurt someone but at times you got to worry about your feelings over other people.

The Beginning of a NEW era

Well...this is new to me. My first time blogging. That's only if you don't count Myspace blogs.

Kinda weird.

I really don't know what to write but... I do know why I want to blog.

I'm in my fourth year at Eastern Kentucky University and I have a minor in journalism. What is a better way to get practice then to blog. LOL. I know lame.

It is 2:49 and it's finals week. I really should be going to sleep but I think I would rather be doing this.

I love reading blogs. I have a whole folder under my favorites dedicated to random blogs that I come across and interest me so I save them so I can see any updates.

I decided on the blog name, S.I.S.T.A, because I'm the president of a student organization on campus called S.I.S.T.A (Sisters in Spirit Through Achievement) and the purpose for the organization is to empower the women on campus and surrounding communities through student programs, community service, motivational speakers and provide these young women with the tools that are necessary to be successful while in college. I also research what sista stands for. UrbanDictionary.com says "a woman who carries herself with pride", "a black woman who carries herself with high respect", and "a fellow female who has been through similar situations to what you have been through thus empowering her to truly empathize, support and encourage you on your journey as you do the same for her. She gets it. There is no need to strain & explain to a true sistah."
I want my blog to be a testimate to any young woman who is trying to better her life. Regardless in what way that is.

I'm better sure I will write longer and better post in the future...but since my roommate is complaining that I'm typing to loud I think its time to shut down.